Am I Really Over It? – You're Worth It Foundation Inc

Through a relationship with God, he lets me know things that I should address. In this post I want to address lost. First of all God can comfort everyone who ask, seek and knock. After all, he sent the Holy Spirit to give us power and comfort us.

I love using my life as a testimony of how awesome God is through Jesus Christ. I had a daughter. Her name was Jocelyn. She passed away when she was around 2 months old. There was a point in time when I was very sick. Jocelyn, my daughter was also born sick. She was born 15oz at birth (less than a pound). She was the tiniest baby I had ever remember seeing. When I gave birth to her; I was intubated and chemically put to sleep. I was too sick to see her at first, so the nurses and doctors allowed my family to see her. It took about 6-7 days for me to see Jocelyn. Needless to say, I fell apart emotionally. Jocelyn was not only tiny but I could see through her skin and watch her heart beat and her intestines move. I was willing to do all I possibly can for my baby. She had her good days and bad days, but she was thriving and fighting for life. She fought for a little over 2 months.

I could remember that dreaded day like it was yesterday. I walked into the neonatal intensive unit with my sister-in-law. Only to see the doctors manually pumping her chest with their thumbs. The doctors gave me the bad news and allowed me to stand next to her after they could not do anything more. I was standing there looking at my hopes and dreams for my baby slip away. Finally not on the ventilator anymore, the last amounts of air was able to escape from her tiny lungs. I was leaning close to her touching her and the last breath passed right by my ear. It was unbearable for me. I had to call everyone I could think of for support.

My mom was so distraught. She was no longer able to sleep for two years. She gave up on the fight for life. My mother, whom I loved very much, passed away from medical complications. My two girls and my mother were my life. To make a long story short. I was in mourning for my baby and in mourning for my mother. Frankly it became too much to bear. I was becoming angry and resentful. Well after about two more years, I was reintroduced to Jesus Christ. Lets just say Jesus gave me the oil of JOY for mourning. (Isaiah 61:3). I found out about the resurrection from the dead ( Acts 4:2). I know without a doubt;