Time to get personal young girls and women. I personally have been through lots of challenging things in my life. But for now, I will focus on this one instance of my life. During my time of spending in worship, it was revealed to me that someone needs what I am about to share with you. (whooo) ok.
In 2009, I was pregnant. I was literally fighting for my life and that of my unborn child. I was hospitalized with a high risk pregnancy. I was diagnosed with Deep Vein Thrombosis ( DVT). My DVT was very severe. DVT is a blood clot in vein, for short. DVT was in my right leg, which involved the major vein from the knee all the way up into and pass the pelvis upward. Blood was circulating into my leg from the heart, but the blood could not return back to the heart. For you to understand, knock on a piece of solid wood, and that’s how my leg felt. Keep note, I’m still pregnant at the time. In addition to that; my kidneys stopped working. My stomach stopped working. I went into liver failure, and to top it all off, I had a clot in the lungs. Well, when your pregnant, many medications can not be given. Many treatments can not be done, when you’re pregnant. I believe, I was about 3 months pregnant. I lost hope, the doctors didn’t know exactly what to do for me. They said, I had too many things going on at once and to top it all off, I was pregnant. Well the doctors told me, the best thing to do was to have an abortion, so they could save my life. At that time in my life, I was a backslider. Meaning, I knew about God, and had worshipped daily long time before, but life got in the way and I slowly decreased worship and prayer, until I finally stopped. I also was not married. For help, I turned to everyone so I could to figure out what to do. Should I keep my unborn baby girl, or should I abort her to save my life. To say the least, the doctors voted on abortion. My friends voted on abortion. And guess what, the pastor of the church I use to frequent, also voted on abortion. Note , I am not angry at any of these individuals because they tried to help me the best way they knew how, at that point in time. But I felt so lost, when the Pastor told me to abort my baby. I didn’t know what to do. I am not telling this story for pity. I am telling this story because we can not base our decision on what other people think, women, especially if it goes against the word of God. Humans make mistakes and bad decisions sometimes, so we can not let them dictate our lives. Getting back to the story, my mother would come to see me and pray. Then she would go back home and pray. I know my mother stayed up all night praying for me because I am alive. When I was in the hospital, I just knew who I finally had to turn to. I had to turn to Jesus Christ because when almost everyone is giving up, He never gives up. Someone is going through a situation right now, where it feels like you’re alone. I am a witness today of the living God, you are not. God says, he will never leave or forsake you, he will be with you until the end of the world. It doesn’t matter women what you have done because the blood of Jesus washes all sins away. Trust God, why, because you’re worth it!
This is a picture of Jocelyn, the one I wouldn’t destroy.
